Morning Musings

You'd think that by the time we're in our fifties we'd be so well-versed in the experiences that demonstrate that life is unpredictable-expect the unexpected-that we would stop believing that we can somehow see into the future. But we don't. We persist in believing that we are able, from our tiny, limited perspective in the here and now, to foresee what will happen, what's in store. We continue to operate from a place of foregone conclusion, no matter how many times we are surprised by life's twists and turns, certain that if this, then that.

I think it's because living with the discomfort of not knowing is unbearable for most of us. We humans like to be in control! How dare Life throw us curveballs?!

I mean, it does seem to be our knee jerk response, our default setting.

I love Arthur Ashe's response to the being asked if he ever wondered, "Why me?" He said, "Why not me?"

When unexpected wonderful things happen, we love to thank God. When unexpected "bad" things happen, we blame God, ask how He could've let such a thing happen, ask what kind of God he is.

Who's fickle?

I do not believe God is an entity that has a personal stake in my life. I think of God as a force, a creative force, that is in motion, constantly unfolding in ways that I simply cannot predict or imagine but if I tune in to the Harmony of the Spheres, let go and ride the wave, somehow everything seems to shimmer with Life and Light. Whereas if I fight the force, rail against it, try to make it be other than it is, freeze it in time by clutching at it, everything feels dull, lifeless, frightening. I can certainly exercise my will, but I feel exhausted and unhappy while doing so.

Let Go and Let God. Good Orderly Direction. Go with the flow. Let Go and Let Flow.

Life feels better this way.