OK, first things first: It's become very clear to me that I will most likely NOT be blogging very often while school is on. My once a week goal was definitely a big ol' pie in the sky.
The second thing is that I remain quite un...something. At first, everything just seemed so freaking absurd, there was so much material with which to work. But as time has gone on, everything has felt more tragic, more real, and way less funny. And as the holidays loom, it is really hitting me that Hyde and Daddy are gone.
I made the decision to be with Jeckle and Mr. Wizard (and Mom) for Christmas a couple of weeks ago. I anticipate this being a mixed blessing. Not the being with, but the being there, without my brother or daddy. See, I didn't go back for Christmas last year after Daddy died. My last Christmas there was with everyone. Something tells me this is going to be hard.
As for the electrical storm...I wrote a few blogs back that it seemed as if Hyde had finally broken on through to the other side. I take that back.
There was recently a series of weird electrical occurrences and findings at the house. Brand new bulbs that blew out immediately and repeatedly, the discovery of an ungrounded outlet with wires that were completely fried, and wiring from an outlet that mysteriously went up into the crawl space above the house, going who-knows-where, also burnt to a crisp.
Have I mentioned that our brother loved all things electrical? One time when he and Jeckle were kids, he wired the doorknob to her room so that when she went to turn the knob she got shocked. He also wired up a stereo so that the sound would come out of her closet and scare her.
So, the question is this: Are these electrical situations the result of tampering, then or now?
And, if Hyde had lived much longer, would he have met his end because the house burned to the ground?
Friday, October 24, 2008
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Head Above Water
Unfortunately, there has been little music in the quiet these days (to reference the comment on my last entry), although Pam and Jeri ARE playing this Friday night (they're the women I hired to play at my birthday). So, perhaps change is afoot.
No, I have to be honest and say I think what my therapist said is mostly true: Things typically get worse before they get better.
Now, I'm not trying to sound all gloomy and woe is me, but delving into the deep, dark recesses of my life doesn't lend itself to feeling all happy-go-lucky a lot of the time. Although I do have my moments of peace and contentment. But I'd be lying if I said the events of the past year and my childhood aren't a bit challenging to work through. Unfinished business. It hasn't remained unfinished for 40+ years for nothing!
But both Jeckle and I confessed to each other that we wanted to see each other at Christmas, so that's something.
And things with the house are starting to shape up nicely. Not too long ago, our realtor seemed to become a turncoat, but she has since redeemed herself and is back on board. Jeckle and Mr. Wizard have managed to get a surveyor out to the property and several ideas are percolating. We have decided to sell the house separately, and NOT to the Coach and his wife, who just wanted to tear it down. Jeckle and I realized we are, in fact, quite sentimental about it so to hell with them!
The idea Jeckle has come up with that I like the best so far is to try and get the spring on the property (our mother's haven) connected to the greenway so that A) we could name it after our mother and B) we would always have access to it. So wish us luck in convincing the man who owns the two lots between the spring and greenway to allow a path and for the city to be into a donation from us.
Another idea is to build condos and have the spring be part of the lovely grounds.
Of course, what we really wanted to do is develop a trailer park, just for the Coach and his wife. Unfortunately, we can't because it's within the city limits. Damn it. It would have been perfect!
At any rate, it looks like the house will be sold fairly soon (understandably, there is a lot of interest), which will give us time to wait out the economic situation and decide what we really want to do with the rest of the property.
In the meantime, we continue to try and get our lawyer to force the financial company to release Hyde's money so that Jeckle and Mr. Wizard can recoup some of the thousands of dollars they have laid out in the past 4 months. I recently found out that the company is definitely in violation of the law by requiring an official cause of death on the death certificate since the funds are not in an insurance policy. But for some reason, our lawyer's response to my query, "Is that LEGAL," has been to simply say, "Gee, it seems kinda weird to me, too, but that's what they say has to happen." Now I ask you, does that sound like any lawyer you've ever heard of? It has been, to say the least, maddening. I plan to take matters into my own hands as of tomorrow by filing a complaint with the state insurance commission. Weird, my ass!
To end on a positive note, it seems that Hyde has finally broken on through to the other side. Jeckle has reported that there have been no more strange goings on at the house since the estate sale. I hope Hyde is, at long last, at peace.
No, I have to be honest and say I think what my therapist said is mostly true: Things typically get worse before they get better.
Now, I'm not trying to sound all gloomy and woe is me, but delving into the deep, dark recesses of my life doesn't lend itself to feeling all happy-go-lucky a lot of the time. Although I do have my moments of peace and contentment. But I'd be lying if I said the events of the past year and my childhood aren't a bit challenging to work through. Unfinished business. It hasn't remained unfinished for 40+ years for nothing!
But both Jeckle and I confessed to each other that we wanted to see each other at Christmas, so that's something.
And things with the house are starting to shape up nicely. Not too long ago, our realtor seemed to become a turncoat, but she has since redeemed herself and is back on board. Jeckle and Mr. Wizard have managed to get a surveyor out to the property and several ideas are percolating. We have decided to sell the house separately, and NOT to the Coach and his wife, who just wanted to tear it down. Jeckle and I realized we are, in fact, quite sentimental about it so to hell with them!
The idea Jeckle has come up with that I like the best so far is to try and get the spring on the property (our mother's haven) connected to the greenway so that A) we could name it after our mother and B) we would always have access to it. So wish us luck in convincing the man who owns the two lots between the spring and greenway to allow a path and for the city to be into a donation from us.
Another idea is to build condos and have the spring be part of the lovely grounds.
Of course, what we really wanted to do is develop a trailer park, just for the Coach and his wife. Unfortunately, we can't because it's within the city limits. Damn it. It would have been perfect!
At any rate, it looks like the house will be sold fairly soon (understandably, there is a lot of interest), which will give us time to wait out the economic situation and decide what we really want to do with the rest of the property.
In the meantime, we continue to try and get our lawyer to force the financial company to release Hyde's money so that Jeckle and Mr. Wizard can recoup some of the thousands of dollars they have laid out in the past 4 months. I recently found out that the company is definitely in violation of the law by requiring an official cause of death on the death certificate since the funds are not in an insurance policy. But for some reason, our lawyer's response to my query, "Is that LEGAL," has been to simply say, "Gee, it seems kinda weird to me, too, but that's what they say has to happen." Now I ask you, does that sound like any lawyer you've ever heard of? It has been, to say the least, maddening. I plan to take matters into my own hands as of tomorrow by filing a complaint with the state insurance commission. Weird, my ass!
To end on a positive note, it seems that Hyde has finally broken on through to the other side. Jeckle has reported that there have been no more strange goings on at the house since the estate sale. I hope Hyde is, at long last, at peace.
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